I know i've said a lot of things
and I know i'll say a fuckton more,
but I guarantee I won't mean
any of them.
You've got to understand
I don't know what I'm doing,
forgive me when I fuck up but I'm a shoe in
for most confused person in the room.
I try to tell you how much you mean,
but I end up saying stupid things
like I love you
and I'll never ever leave.
But I've got doubts,
they're like a swarm of bees,
and I try to outrun them but they always find me
so eventually I just ran to your arms.
And eventually I'll hurt you,
and eventually could be today.
Our relationship was doomed the first time I said your name.
And eventually you'll look at me
and say “Why would you ever?”
and I won't be able to explain.
Because I have no idea how I've tethered myself
to the pain I can cause you
when I tell you I love you and don't.
I know i've said a lot of things
and I know i'll say a fuckton more,
but I guarantee I won't mean
any of them.
You've got to understand
I don't know what I'm doing,
forgive me when I fuck up but I'm a shoe in
for most confused person in the room.
I try to tell you how much you mean
but it's like pulling teeth.
I just can't do it to myself
so I end up saying stupid things
like I love you and I'll never ever leave.
But eventually I will.
Or eventually I'll beg you to.
And eventually you'll look at me
and say “How could you ever?”
and I won't be able to explain.
Because I have no idea why I've tethered myself
to the pain I can cause you
when I tell you I love you and don't.
And you deserve better,
and you deserve better,
and you deserve better than me
and my mess of insecurities.
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